Perhaps this is the time for me to become more mature , more high-minded in dealing with this problem and time for me to organize my life better. this is the time when I must grow up with a stronger faith. yep! This is the day when 14 years ago I had been born. NADIA who was born with a plain face, with honesty, and clean from all sin and on this day I want to go back into that kind nadia.
But now I get sad, I just confuse why is my birthday’s gift was so painful .. yep.. the separation. errrhhh! today I had to change my sim card so he couldn’t call me anymore. though I’ve let him go to be happy with someone else , but my heart is difficult to leave his heart. He told me that I should be candid with all of this. I was smiling at him when he said that , but my heart was crying. I just knew that the cry in the hearts hurt more than cry out. but yeah well.. I must let him to go. ‘cause I love him. And I know I love him doesn’t mean to have him. Well yeah , maybe this is the only way to help me to forget all of about him.
Now I know that I should not dissolve in grief like this continuously. I’m 14 years old now, so from now on I have to go back into the old nadia. nadia .. someone who is always enthusiastic and always entertaining others. not like someone who is depressed and frustrated like now.
I was really happy when at oo.oo , I know that all of my friends said a happy birthday to me. It was great. Especially when my someone special draw me a birthday cake in yahoo. Ohmygod! Make my eyes want to shed a tears. not a sad tears , but a happy tears.. to know that there’s someone who loves me like that. ILYSM jongie. Maybe you’ll never read my post , haha.
Oh ya , in Saturday I’m gonna have a birthday party with my friends. Maybe just some friends , but I know it’ll be a great day. Hahaha.
Okay just waiting for our photo in the next post okay. Hahahah 
