Life isnt always easy

“You cannot avoid pain, but you can chose to overcome it.” - Paulo Coelho

I believe most would agree with me that life isn’t always easy and some of you would agree that if it is easy, it wouldn’t be fun and exciting. I like the part that life isn’t always easy; in fact I will grow to love all the challenges that life throws at me eventually. It is human nature that at times I would still grumble a little. However, I am grateful for every challenges that had come my way and they provided me with the opportunity to better myself. There were times when I doubted myself and thought that I couldn’t do it. But time and again, I proved to myself that I could actually do it. When

we focus on what we can do, the challenges will eventually work out.

How about you, were there times when you doubted your own ability to overcome challenges that came your way? Did you also focus on what you could do and eventually the challenges worked out? We may not be able to overcome every challenges always … at least not at the initial stage when we meet it.

But as the saying goes, “We will not be dealt with any challenges which are too big for us to handle.” I believe and trust in that. Challenges are but invisible steps which we must take towards our destination. Taking each step requires Faith as the step would only show itself when we have already taken it. Just as what Steve Job said in his first story about ‘connecting the dots,’ we wouldn’t know where we are heading until we look back and connect the dots. Thus, the truth of the matter is we wouldn’t know exactly where we are heading a lot of times and that is where we make mistakes along the way. Just keep the Faith and keep moving!

Life isn’t always easy and it is not supposed to be easy also but that is where all the excitements are! Quoting from Jim Rohn:

 

a little about me

As I was reading over some of the posts I have written here, it dawned on me that it sounds like I do everything right when it comes to loving my boy. I can assure you that nothing could be further from the truth.

As far as the things I write about in the various posts you have all seen here, I believe in every one of them. I also have done every one of them some of the time. Like everyone else, I miss doing many of these things sometimes as well.

Like all of you, I get tired, I get grumpy, I get my feelings hurt and don’t do the things I talk about everyday here with you. But what I try to do is get back to them quickly. I try to catch myself in the middle of a bad mood, apologize and start showing horsie how much I love her. How much I appreciate her. How much I adore her.

The thing I like so much about having written this blog, written these thoughts down, is they are always on my mind. I spend very little time lost in complaining or griping about someone else. The focus is on me. On my actions. How I am treating him.

I hope as you read these thoughts, these posts, that you too will start to have them on your mind. That the ideas written here become a part of your conscious thoughts. That they will help you to get through the tough times in your life. That they will help you deal with the situations you face in your relation.

It takes a strong commitment to change any habit, behavior or situation in your life that you are unhappy with. Make a commitment to read and reread the ideas I have posted here.

14th birthday

Perhaps this is the time for me to become more mature , more high-minded in dealing with this problem and time for me to organize my life better. this is the time when I must grow up with a stronger faith. yep! This is the day when 14 years ago I had been born. NADIA who was born with a plain face, with honesty, and clean from all sin and on this day I want to go back into that kind nadia.

But now I get sad, I just confuse why is my birthday’s gift was so painful .. yep.. the separation. errrhhh! today I had to change my sim card so he couldn’t call me anymore. though I’ve let him go to be happy with someone else , but my heart is difficult to leave his heart. He told me that I should be candid with all of this. I was smiling at him when he said that , but my heart was crying. I just knew that the cry in the hearts hurt more than cry out. but yeah well.. I must let him to go. ‘cause I love him. And I know I love him doesn’t mean to have him. Well yeah , maybe this is the only way to help me to forget all of about him.

Now I know that I should not dissolve in grief like this continuously. I’m 14 years old now, so from now on I have to go back into the old nadia. nadia .. someone who is always enthusiastic and always entertaining others. not like someone who is depressed and frustrated like now.

I was really happy when at oo.oo ,  I know that all of my friends said a happy birthday to me. It was great. Especially when my someone special draw me a birthday cake in yahoo. Ohmygod! Make my eyes want to shed a tears.  not a sad tears , but a happy tears.. to know that there’s someone who loves me like that. ILYSM jongie. Maybe you’ll never read my post , haha.

Oh ya , in Saturday I’m gonna have a birthday party with my friends. Maybe just some friends , but I know it’ll be a great day. Hahaha.

Okay just waiting for our photo in the next post okay. Hahahah

FRIENDSHIP -

Humans are all social beings that’s why we naturally need a community to meet other people to socialize. No one can rely on all people but we need some to trust and rely on and those are what we call “friends”. Having a friend is risky because you might get hurt and disappointed at times , but the value of a reliable friend is far greater and it is worth risking.

We all have friends. A Friend is considered to be someone special. Together you laugh and together you cry. True friends will advice you when he or she founds you in trouble. They will never hesitate to tell you about your mistakes.

Good friends always make life seem so much easier and better. In our busy lives , at times when you feel bogged down and isolated , it is your friends who come through. Togetherness is one of the most beautiful aspects of friendship. No matter what friends always stick together ! Be it one of the dullest days of your life while you are killing time doing absolutely nothing , or one of the toughest battles of life or be it one of your most memorable moments in life like your graduation or your birthday – friends are always with you no matter what ! Unconditional support and encouragement is one of the things which friends have. Even when your friend thinks you are wrong , he or she will first try and convince you, but if that fails , rest assured that no matter which way you choose , true friends are always two steps behind !

Often when you are feeling low or depressed , you will never have to explain it to your friend that you are feeling low. A true friend knows when you are upset. Understanding without words what is the ultimate level of good friendship.

Friends are a helping hand , a comforting shoulder to lean on , a patient ear to listen to you and most important a warm and loving hug to embrace you !

No matter what happens , we’ll be best friend till the end. No matter how time changes us , we’ll always be tight until the end. You have always been there for me.. when time was good to us and bad , you’ve always been next to me. telling me not to be sad. THANK YOU for telling me all the things that needed to be said. whether they were good or bad. thanks for teaching me how to be a better friend.

THANK YOU for listening to all my problems and offering me advice. I hope I did the same for you. I hope i was a good enough friend for you to talk to. I know we’d said that we would be best friend , tight right up to the very end ! I LOVE U , FRIEND ! ♥

Thank You

thanks for everything you’ve done to me. i’m really gratefull to God to give me a chance to meet you..to know you.. and the most important one is to have you in my life.

i’ve never been so sure about anything before but this loving feeling gonna be a feeling i feel forever more. You are the best thing that ever happened in my whole , entire , damn life. just always remember that I really treasure your love and care. even though we’re apart , this will not be the end of our commitment. the commitment that says even though we are separated in physically , but our hearts will stay together.

And we must remember the promise we’ve made..we promise to strengthen each other , protect each other , cherish each other and LOVE each other as appropriate.

thanks for all of your kindness for me , your caring and your helping.. and also thank you for your story , your experience , your smile , your tears , your hand to held me , your shoulder to me for cry on..that you’ve shared to me. thanks for all of you’ve done that could touch my heart.. like your sacrifice when i was in pain..when you carried me straight to the hospital at that time..

you have been the spirit of living my days in school. you’ve been my hope when world let me down , you’ve been my strenght when i was weak. thank you jongie..
thanks for make me understand what life’s mean. thanks for help me to find my way out in every problem that i found..

now whenever i want to be with you , i just close my eyes and pretend you’re near. ’cause in my heart i can see you.. i can touch you.. and i can feel you , like real.. nothing can ever change what i feel inside.

now i can accept the fact that we must face ’cause i believe , maybe this’s the best way out that God gives for us. although we can’t together in physically but please believe..our heart will always together forever. will always beat as ONE. even we know that we can’t be together , but u must remember that i’ll always there with you.. there..in your heart..

thanks for the tears you have shed just for me. when you cry in front of me yesterday made me realize that the love that you gave to me is not just an ordinary love. But it’s truly an extraordinary love. I’ve never thought that you would cry like that. But now you must stop your tears , I know that’s hard. ‘cause I feel the same way you feel , but remember what you said to me long time ago that life must go on. Don’t stuck just in one trial.

fiuhhhh.. this is the END of all our love story that made us full of  emotion. The emotion that made our body so weak but made our heart so strong. we must start to live our own life in our own way. I still want to help you and need your help. And i also still want to share my story to you , jongie.  we could still be friend.. be bestfriend.. the best friend ever.. ’cause we are true friends.. true friends who will never be separated forever.

‘cause i know , we are ONE , jongie..

Can’t fight this feeling anymore

I can’t fight this feeling any longer
And yet I’m still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself, that I can’t hold out forever
I say there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we’re together
You give my life direction, you make everything so clear

And even as I wonder I’m keeping you in sight
You’re a candle in the window on a cold dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
and throw away the oars forever
Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can’t fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I’ve been running around in circles in my mind
Baby it always seems that I’m following you
Cause you take me to the places that alone I’d never find
And even as I wonder I’m keeping you sight
You’re a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars forever
Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby I can’t fight this feeling anymore

a song that can express my heart says to you , my mr. jongie ♥
if we can , i really want to have you completely. but it seems so impossible. not seems.. but that’s really really impossible. although everything’s gonna be possible if i’m with you.. but for this thing , we can’t make it as a possible thing. herfhhhh ;(
honestly , of course i’m sad right now.. since we can’t be together , but now all i want to do is just using time for maximal before we must seperate by the condition that we have to face someday maybe.

Don’t Surrender

“In a world that is always changing every day. People always judge the actions and words that we do or said. I remember the barbie dolls and the days playing in kindergarten. When I don’t care about their assessment.

But I was surprised to see in the mirror ,  someone who is completely different glaring my eyes. a cool little girl who I saw at the age of four and five years old , has now become a teenager who is learning to survive. “

When I was young and free and my imagination wander without boundaries , I aspire to change the world. As I grew older and wiser I realize that the world won’t change , and I rather to specialize my goal to change my own self. For once I step..  so many trials that almost made me surrender and give up. But suddenly I remembered the words that Ryan d’masiv said.. “JANGAN MENYERAH”

” Syukuri apa yang ada
hidup adalah anugerah
tetap jalani hidup ini
melakukan yang terbaik”

With such a short sentence , I realized that I can’t give up if I want to make a big changes in my life. I must continue to strive to reach my goal. Since i know that the resignation only makes us lazy to do a thing.

‘cause i think , Giving up is the ultimate disbelief in myself and what I’m truly capable of.  It’s telling myself that no way , no how will anything change to make my situation better.

I just read an inspiration that was so interesting from a book.

From that inspiration , I should be able to improve myself and who knows.. I might be able to change the world.

thanks for reading my post , world !

CHERISH

I want to learn all things related to jogja. starting from the language , manners , and culture. because if i love someone who comes from Jogja , I also have to love his hometown

from now , little by little.. I begin to learn about the language that used by people in jogja. yeaaaa.. the Java language. suddenly , i really interested in learning this language , because I think that I must also appreciate the language that he used. because I don’t just want to love the person , but I also want to love all the background that he has. hahaha. It sounded so weird , but this is the form of how I appreciate him as a someone who I really love.

and incidentally , he is the man who came from JOGja. although he was born in Jakarta but he still loves his hometown. And he felt proud as a people from jogja. I was also proud when someone who considers me as a person from there. Because honestly, I think the people who live there is full of modesty. And I like it much. They spoke so politely even though I don’t understand what they are talking about , but it all sounded so polite and educated.

From the time I thought that I’d love jogja’s culture , I like a warm sweet tea , a drinks that I drink every day , while conducting a study tour there. Initially I never liked a sweet food or drink , but now I really like it. and I really enjoy it ! xD Initially, I didn’t like the Java language because I think it’s not attractive , maybe i hate that language. but now I’m so infatuate with the Java language. This is only a small change that happened to me in a physical thing. but so many changes that I experienced in terms of personality.

the personality that have changed in me , for example _ i become more appreciate other people , especially with people under me in economic’s term and appreciate the differences that there between me and other.

the more I know about the culture there , the more I can better appreciate the other person. For example to the employees. which initially perhaps I called them just for asking a help and then said thanks , but now I can better appreciate them by greeting them first when we met. the little things that I do to appreciate them , they do more to me with more respect.

Now for me , a difference not a bad thing , because with the existence of a difference we become be more able to know and learn the differences. I have felt that and for me it’s really interesting !!

I’m really happy to feel a new lesson. new lesson _ which taught me how we should Cherish the people who are different with us although maybe it was very contradictory , but I’m trying to learn all about it to appreciate you as the one i love.And now I make it as a very pleasant thing , and it all really be very nice !!

motivation -

‘Motivation is a fire from within. If someone else tries to light that fire under you, chances are it will burn very briefly.’

Di setiap aktivitas yang akan diawali , motivasi sangat dibutuhkan karena selain akan meringankan beban yang dilalui, motivasi juga akan meningkatkan semangat untuk mendapatkan hasil yang terbaik. Dengan adanya motivasi , juga akan menghilangkan kejenuhan blajar yg asal2an dan bljar yang dilakukan secara terpaksa. Motivasi akan membuat seseorang benar-benar enjoy dengan sesuatu yang dikerjakan. belajar tidak lagi sebagai beban ato kewajiban tetapi adalah sbagai hobi ato kesenangan sehingga hasil yang dicapai dari waktu ke waktu menjadi meningkat.

agar semua itu dapat terwujud , kita harus mempunyai 5 hal utama yg menurud aku tu suatu pembangun yg ikut peran serta dlm suatu motivasi , yaitu :

• VISION __ visi dapat dikatakan sebagai apa yang ingin kita capai di masa depan. tetapi ada satu hal yg harus kt tau bahwa.. vision without a task is only a dream. A task without a vision is but drudgery. But vision with a task is a dream fulfilled. With vision there is no room to be frightened. No reason for intimidation. It’s time to march forward ! Let’s be confident and positive !

• PLAN __ maksudnya adlah agar kita memiliki sebuah rencana yg jelas agar kita bs melakukan suatu hal sesuai dengan yg sudah kita rencanakan. tanpa adanya perencanaan , maka sesuatu yg kita lakukan tidak akn terselesaikan secara optimal atau mungkin menjadi gagal.  A plan helps keep you on schedule, makes it easier to recognize success and failure, helps pump you up when things aren’t going so well, and most importantly, provides an essential focus.

• SPIRIT __ Apapun yang akan dikerjakan, awali dengan semangat. karena semakin semangat maka kita akan lebih berniat untuk meraih suatu kesuksesan dlm belajar. Nothing has any power if you’re not afraid of it. You need to know your own truth. You aren’t what you think you are.

• HARDWORK __ menurud aku di dunia ini tidak ada org yg bodoh , yg ada hanyalah kemalasan. kemalasan adalah salah satu hal yg menghalangi keberhasilan kita. maka semakin kita bekerja keras , semakin bnyak yg kita dapatkan dn smakin bnyak jg kesempatan untuk meraih ksuksesan. ini adalah hal yang ku alami , ketika aku bekerja keras dalam belajar , aku dapat meningkatkan prestasi blajar ku di klas 8 ini. Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination and dedication.

• LEARNING __ hidup adalah suatu proses belajar , maka terus blajar walopun mungkin kadang kita merasa kita sudah pintar namun lebih bnyak blajar lebih membuat kita semakin banyak mengerti. Learning is a treasure that will follow its owner everywhere.

5 hal inilah yang membuat aku lebih bersemangat untuk ke sekolah dn belajar , selain karena sahabat dn mreka smua yg telah membuat ku begitu senang menjalani hari2 dskola. hahaha. smoga bermanfaat for u all who already read my post. thanks !

My Love

You brought love and laughter to my empty, sad and boring life. My heart had known only emptiness until the day you came and filled my heart to overflowing with your jovial ways. Your sense of humor has turned my frown into a smile.

So many times I thought life is so unfair. I know there are reasons why we can’t be together but this will not be the reason for me to forget you. You really know how much I love you and care for you but there is nothing I can do more. Even though we’re apart , this will not be the end of our commitment. You are the best thing that ever happened in my whole , entire , damn life. Just always remember that I really treasure your love and care.

now in this room in a 11.30 pm , I am listening to some loves songs that I have burned into the CD. Although I don’t understand the words because the songs are in Chinese, but I know that it is about love and that I like it a lot. Just like love, I really don’t understand how it works but all I know is that the love I have for you is just like the Chinese songs I am listening to now. It really sounds so nice to me but I don’t know what it means. I know that my life is much happier when you’re around me and that my life is filled with songs.

I try to put this feeling into words, but fail miserably. As the days continue to pass, my love for you continues to grow. I never thought I had the capacity to love anybody as much as I love you right now. Everyday, when I awake from a dream of us together, I thank God I found you ! Everything about you is just so perfect. I know you are not without imperfections , but in my eyes , everything you do just seems so flawless. The way you express your love to me is so awesome !! I feel so loved ! I need only to think of you to have all my troubles melt away.

Thank you for making my life so much more meaningful and giving me this chance to show you what love means to me. I know that I am suppose to go to sleep now but there is so much I want to tell you and there is so much I want to experience with you. Every time I have to be away from you is the hardest thing for me to do because that is like giving up a part of your life which means so much to me. just like now.. i can’t sleep before i write this post for you and only you !

even though our love is a forbidden love , but i don’t care what others say about you and me. All I know is that I love you and that will never change.

Just always remember that I really treasure your love and cares for me. I really love you so.

I really love you so , mr. jongi..